My last post was back in August and I had lofty goals of posting everyday. But to be perfectly honest, I couldn’t hold myself to any specific routines other than showering, eating, hydrating and sleeping. Which I guess was what needed to happen. My rule of thumb became “good enough”. As in, “whatever I managed to do/get done today…will just have to be good enough”.
But now I’m better. Much better. I’ve crossed some sort of imaginary finish line, completed a long walk through a dark tunnel and now I’m able to breathe again. After a few travel days, I’m find myself in a part of the world where it’s much quieter and peaceful. It feels like I’ve landed on a really safe and incredibly soft cloud. A cloud with warm blankets, plenty of snacks, with rain pelting on the windows. The cozy level is turned up here.
2024 feels different. Something about it feels incredibly fresh, vibrant and clean (check back with me a year from now and see how that last sentence aged). Granted, most New Year’s Days feel this way. The possibilities are endless, the horizons span far and wide. The last few years may have been tough for many of us, so I say it’s fine to grab a fresh blank piece of paper and dream big.
I’m taking the next 30 days here to unpack my 2023 in all its messy glory. For a few reasons. One, because it’s behind me..or I’m in front of it. Whatever. As long as I’m not IN it. I can be incredibly generative in the mud, having all sorts of insights and epiphanies, but I don’t necessarily have great perspective.
Another reason: to make sense of it all. I’m patterns person. I can sense connections and and see the why’s. The thing about 2023 was that NOTHING made sense. I was forced to exist and “be” in the most frustrating kind of liminality.
Lastly, I’ve written for 15 years. Writing is only way I make sense of things. But that practice has been between me…and me. It’s been an incredibly cathartic, yet lonely process. Also…I’m so sick of social media. I’m curious to grow an audience authentically, to have my words find the right kind of people, and create a digital cafe of sorts, where lively and deep conversations are held.
So cheers to my 5 subscribers! Hope this finds you happy and healthy wherever you are.